Lying to Myself About My Potential as Mom

I was doing the best I could. At least that was the lie I was telling myself. 

My days and nights were full of stress, anxiety, yelling and crying. Being a person with ADD I never could understand what I put my parents through until I had a child of my own with ADHD. Sammy always struggled with her impulses, so listening was an almost impossible task for her. There were days where I was yelling all day and pulling my hair out as to what to do. There were nights that I would cry myself to sleep because I was so worried that Sammy thought of her self as a bad kid.

I started to educate myself on how to handle some of these situations. I realized that there is no way I can control force Sammy to change until she started to grow out of these impulses, so unless I wanted to keep living like I was, I was the one who was going to have to change. I started by stepping away from situations instead of instantly exploding in reaction. I started to make sure that there was always something that she did well and praise her for it every day even if the rest of the day was shit. Every night I started to tell her how proud I was of her and that I am so thankful to have her in my life. Through these new tactics, things got a lot better. There are still those bad days when she just can’t seem to listen, but I always know that she knows I love her, I'm proud of her and I'm a better person, a growing person because she is in my life!

Mera was a royal of the sea. She kept on telling herself that things were fine while Ocean Master was in charge of the water kingdoms. It wasn’t until she found out about the hope that came from Aquaman that she knew she had to reach out to him and give him the confidence to become the rightful king the sea deserved. 

Have you ever kept trying to convince yourself you were doing the best you could when deep down inside you knew you weren’t?!