The Outrageousness of Realizing All You Need is Inside You!

So many times in my life I had to let physical items I cherished go. 

Randy and I have actually lost 2 homes in our time together. Our first home was in PA. We owned it and lived there for 2 years. It was a great home and one I loved, it wasn’t huge but it was perfect for Randy, me, and our (back then) 3 cats. But Randy had to switch jobs and this new one wasn’t cutting it. We had to file for bankruptcy (I was newly pregnant with Sammy) and we had to make a decision to let the house go. That day when the Sharif pulled up and served me with the foreclosure papers, man I felt like I had just lost everything. We also lost our second house. This one was a rental though. We were there for 3 years and I loved living there. But when Randy lost his job, there was just no way we could stay there. I remember the day the landlord told me that our time was up, I broke. I remember that call I made to my Mother-in-law asking if we could move in, I had to call her even before telling Randy. 

But there was one other time I lost a part of me. After we lost the rental we had to put all our things in storage. The problem was we were so far behind in bills. It took Randy 2 months to get a new job after the move. The storage bill was adding up. It got to the point that we just couldn’t afford it! In that unit, I had things belonging to my mom, dad, books I loved to read, furniture and a whole lot of memories. Realizing I had to let go of these irreplaceable items killed me. I remember crying for hours. It took some time but I developed a mentality that my heart, my happiness, and my memories didn’t just rest in those physical things. I came to realize that I had my memories and feelings of those times and that is something no one can take away!

Jerrica also lost a lot in her life. She lived in a house called Starlight House which was a foster house to many young girls. But when Eric Raymond had a plan to burn it down Jericca lost almost everything, it wasn’t until she found a pair of earrings her father left her and transformed her into Jem that she realized that all she needed to push through was inside of her the whole time!

Have you felt like you lost apart of yourself because you lost something precious to you?